#24

I missed another day yesterday! No excuse. The day just passed it by. Practiced four musical instruments, walked and fed the dog, went to the market with my mom, read a bunch. Had ample time, but it didn't happen, but I accept this, personally. The blank spaces in some days simply aren't meant to be filled.

Standing on a low hill yesterday, feeling the wind, I existed completely and totally, with no thoughts in my head at all. Only the vast silent rush of the holy wind. Personally I would not replace that moment with my own digital chattering, no matter how apt or amusing or pointless. However, if you happen derive some sustenance from my humble noises, I do apologize that I was not where I was supposed to be.

I can offer you most days! Most. But no truth-seeking person makes promises. Only one man ever made a true promise, and as we are, we can but reach up to that height, straining and failing.

This is all by way of saying that damn play is probably not going to be ready by October first. A lot of things changed since I made that plan, which is how the world works. I still mean to try. This blog is all I've had the juice for since I started, and work demands as work is wont, but things are settling down.


--JL

#17

I'm not going to do anything special for this post. I did a lot of stuff today, and also yesterday, and part of what I did yesterday was write a long-ass intricate post. Eastbound and Down is on, so fuck this blog today. "Kiss my ass and suck my dick, everyone", to quoth Mr. Powers.

See, for example, I just spent ten minutes laughing, instead of writing. It was great. Profanity is so good, it is so funny. Thank God for a good long braid of fucked-up cussing and farcical low terribleness. Plus that good old real talk, crunchy hot guitars, and red dirt follies.

Something I did today was eat a sandwich, and before that, some chicken and mushrooms. Also I drove a bunch of books around, deposited a check, applied for a job, drove a bunch of jars around. I didn't curse anyone out, engage my braggadocio, or even raise my voice. I avoided cocaine, bags full of spray paint, and hard liquor, and did no indecency to anyone.

--JL